1 month later

It has now been 1 month since my sweet baby Elliot passed. I started this blog shortly before that and have already had over 5000 views. thank you to all those of you who have cared enough to read my thoughts. I probably won't be posting very often now but i'll try to update still occasionally. I've spent my time trying to keep busy and have made a lot of progress on some of the projects that I am working on. i've also been filling time working on some of my old unfinished projects and doing some volunteer work. the first couple weeks were filled with visitors and people calling to see how i was doing but things have slowed down now and i'm glad to have some of my own projects that need work and the opportunity to do some service with some of my friends to keep me busy. one of my little girls had a birthday not long ago and was so excited about having a party with her preschool friends but the weather was not nice out last week so i decided today would be a good day to celebrate and let her have a party. overall i am doing really well. spring time is finally here so hopefully i can get more active and take off the extra pounds i gained with Elliot and get back in shape a bit. aside from that and occasional headaches physically i'm doing great. I went to my followup appointment at the doctors and they seemed to think physically and emotionally i have handled things very well and that i should expect to have hard times just randomly pop up. also if i do decide to have more children in the future i will need to be watched from the beginning by the high risk doctors. life is full of challenges and often times we look at other peoples lives and think how simple they must be and how everything seems so perfect and wonder why ours must be so complicated at times. its funny how if we actually get to know those people who seem to have the simple easy lives we realize that everything we thought about them was wrong and how often times it's just the way they are able to look at things and the attitude they have that makes them able to keep their own challenges outside of everyone elses view. it's sad how quickly some people are to judge before understanding also. sometimes the circumstances we face in life are not what we think are the most ideal, especially those outside of our control, but we must always remember who we are and what is most important to us and then work towards that regardless of how much time it may take to get where we want to be or who would try to stand in our way of discovering who we are and what would make us happy. I hope that each of you who read this will take a few minutes to think about something whether it's large or small that would help you to be more happy in life and go after it because life is short and you deserve to find joy and peace. After that perhaps think of something you could do to help another person today because you never know how much a small act of kindness can do or what a difference it might make to someone just to get a call to let them know you are thinking of them. live, love and serve with an open heart and you may be amazed at what it can do in your own life